hello(:
first of all,elaine and i went to watch step up.ZZZZZZOMG!the lead actor is duke fro m she's the man!and yes,he's kinda hot?haha,the show was so banging yes?its damn romantic alright.i felt my knee went crazy for a moment,haha.alas,i got to see elaine yeo.yesterday was such a happy day.oh and you know i was just wondering how come so many people just vanished from my life,haha alright i sound emo.then i suddenly thought of ezaty.zomg.i didnt know that she went for obm?so okay,i was wondering if these people are still alive,or NOT?haha,i miss them alright!days/weeks/months/years go by and you meet new friends all the time?but sometimes,you look back and you feel that you kinda miss your old friends?uh huh.because when we talk once again someday,we'll be like laughing our asses off about so many things?haha,okay so i'm already kinda laughing.HEH.so alright,its confusing really?uh huh.all the ultimate rockstars?oh man,yes i dont know.wtf,i'm insane?i'm outie.TOODLES(:





;everytime i look at you,i realise what i gotta do.

hello(:
my weekends were so banging!okay okay.it was so fun.

FRIDAY
so,okay.went out with mum and godmum for ice cream at some deserted place at clementi.but it was damn niceeeee alright!haha.then we just drove around.and then boredom came along): but but!aunt vina was having a barbeque trash party.and and HER PLACE WAS FULL WITH JUNIOR FAIRSIANS.omg.they are taller than me okay!they're like only primary 6?omg,they were really scary and stuff.but they treat me niceeeee!haha,after all.i AM older despite the height right!and omg,do you know how much i just hate barbeques?its such a smelly and hot and crowded event.UHHHHH,horrible yes?haha.and you know my mum,godmum and aunt vina were from fairfield.so they were telling me all their stories.oh goodness.its downright hilarious alrightttttt!omg,i laughed and laughed till i almost pee-d in my underpants.oh and you know fairsians so didnt like convent girls?!like omg.but at the end of the day,convent girls are most hated.uh huh.i'm not talking about all.but well at least half,or majority are self denying slobbery sluts.haha,no offence.but its individual comments yes?okay yes i know.all of you will say then why are you still in a convent?because i love my friends and my uniform and those cant shuddup teachers?uh huh.they're so loved!and plus i only have to bear with given insults for 2 more years?uh huh.so have i answered you?if not,ask me yes?okay, so we move along!

SATURDAY
so,okay.went for my mum's colleague's house warming lunch at simei.so so many children,omg.the meatballs were DELICIOUSLY STEAMING HOT!haha,then watched street fighter.uh huh.jean claude van damme is so hot.so went to meet godmum again and godpa too.brother wanted to meet them and go for ice cream.oh goodness yes?i felt so miserable.2 scoops of ice creams in a row?omg,thats just so unacceptable yes?but oh well.droved to adam food centre to eat.the satay,TWO THUMBS UP MAN.uh huh.then we made our way down to serene centre for island creamery.the nutella ice cream was so so ooh la la.haha,i saw many many pictures.uh huh.i saw felissa lai's face nicely pasted at that ultra big wall.haha,driving back home was ultra ultra cool.godpa was driving,so brother made him speed like some hot wheels jeep.omg,it was so fun.then he did that left right turn thing.omg,it was hilarious.godmum almost got sick.uh huh.so went home,godparents say my house an SPCA?is it?haha,scruffy was such a good boy(: see my man's the besttttttt.and of course there's another besttttttt,and i miss him): oh man.okay now.no more?

TODAY

so,okay.i did like nothing today.papa cooked,we ate,then i felt so sleepy.like omg,haha.i feel so bored.i wanna go shoppinggggggg.omg,like YAHHHHH.okay.thats it,my uber uber lovely weekend story.i'm outie.TOODLES(:





;when they all come crashing down midflight.

hello(:
just came back from gift shopping with roland.i bought many things.now i'm so so broke.you know i dreamt of ricky martin yesterday.OMGGGGGGGGG,i think i was about to go KL,then he approached me and asked directions to some hotel.i feel so dreamy now.just say it will happen,and i'll be like the happiest girl like EVER.omg.okay okay.i watched some fan video of QAF with at the beginning audio.i almost cried my eyes out): so so sad alright.i miss ELAINE YEO.i wanna go to beer box.its been 735479837485 years since i've seen that place.alright im gonna go to the toilet now.i'm outie.TOODLES(:





;you're the cutest thing that i ever did see.

hello(:
i'm damn sleepy alright!i slept at 4.30.oh whatever.i'm gonna do this thing.so,laters(:


1. Single, taken or crushing?

crushing.

2. Are you happy with your life now?

ummm,yes i guess.

3. When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him/her fast?

hmmm,maybe.

4. Have you ever been heart broken?

hah,i guess not really.or maybe yes.but she was a girl you see.so it doesnt really count yes?

5. Do you believe that there are some circumstances, where cheating love is acceptable?

maybe,or maybe not.but you'll end up with fucked up situations thats for sure.

6. Would you take someone back even if he/she cheats on you?

depends on what he did.

7. Have you talked about marriage to someone else before?

yes.

8. Do you want children?

oooooh.maybe.

9. How many?

2,a boy and a girl.

10. Would you consider adoption?

hmmm,maybe not.

11. If someone likes you now, what do you think is the best way for him/her to let you know his/her feelings?

ask someone to ask him?but you musnt show that that you're close to the someone.

12. Do you enjoy getting into relationships?

if i really love him then well OF COURSE RIGHT!

13. Do you believe in love at first sight?

hmmm,love at first sight sounds so typical.maybe crush at first sight first yes?

14. Do you believe you can change someone?

maybe.but why?

15. If you could get married somewhere, where would it be?

PARIS(: or some other places in Europe.

16. Do you give in easily when fighting?

no.unless you're like someone i really cant afford to lose.

17. Do you have feelings for anyone now?

HAHA,YES.

18. Do you ever wish that you could have had someone but you messed it up?

yes,once.and that was like so so sad.really it was.i cried like every night.

19. Have you ever broken a heart?

i guess so.someone told me,but i dont believe.

20. If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy/girl you are deeply in love with, what will you do?

give in to my bestfriend i guess?or just stay quiet about it until someone makes the first move?

21. Are you missing anyone right now?

UH HUH.


okay,so most of them kinda gave me a big nudge on the head.oh well,i'm glad that the person that i was referring to in question 4,11,18,19 is happy.haha,who'd ever thought that one day we'll go separate ways?uh huh.omg,you know kinda just realised that i used to swoon ricky martin like major!and i was like so young then?but he was so hot.ayeeee,he still is!oh well.i'm outie.TOODLES(:





;Its a private emotion that fills you tonight,and a silence falls between us,let your private emotion come to me .

hello(:
i grabbed a cab home to fetch my brother,then made my way to clementi.we ate that beef noodle thingy.head back home watched some old movies,then i went home.i wanna watch movie.theres still so many more to watch.happy feet,colic,material girls,the covenant,texas chainsaw massacre.oh man.i'm outie.TOODLES(:





;All you have to do is close your eyes,Forget real life and fantasize,Erase bad thoughts start to replace,Create your own amazing place.

hello(:
watched house of wax.omg,chad is so damn hot in house of wax okay!he's like all anti social,problematic and monotonous.ahhhh,so cool.then watched she's the man and cars.HAHA,and i'm feeling hungry now.i'm outie.TOODLES(:






;cigarette butts,ripped photographs,bloody tissues,unwants,empty bottles,stained blades,WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?

hello(:
went to snow city with family yesterday.and it was damn cold.its like -5 degree celsius.so like we were all like freezing in there.it was damn fun.then we slide down the slope,OMG.it was all so hilarious.i'm feeling all tired.i've been going up and down since like thursday.i feel sleepy.i need at least 12 hours of sleep.oh whatever.i'm outie.TOODLES(:





;my life just hasnt been the same,oh baby no.

hello(:
fishing was so damn fun alright!omg,i caught 6 small fishes,and they are damn cute.and no,i didnt bring it home.its too cute(: my brother caught 5,which is so unfair.i'm supposed to catch more more more than him!then we caught 2 seabass,YUM!fish for dinner you know!then it was just so damn fun!we had sandwiches,and other tiny bites.uh huh,it was GOODNESSLY GRACIOUSLY YAY!we took many pictures,so nice okay!i didnt actually like complained about waking up so early,it was worth it!oh man,i wanna go there again!and i wanna get my OWN rod(: okay okay,less talking,pictures pictures!HAHA,i'm outie.TOODLES(:

hello(:
so like going fishing with parents and brotherr tomorrow!hah,i dont know how to catch.but it kinda includes tanning too yes?ayeeee,DO ANYONE OF YOU KNOW HOW TO GET LEGAL DOWNLOADS?i dont really mind about the price.i dont wanna get fine): i thought i saw jeffrey just now.he's my kindergarten friend.and he ws damn cute okay.all tann and dimpley and oh-so-cute!but that person i saw was pretty,and maybe it was a bung.HAH,really really!jeffrey is a hardcore pretty boy!we used to bully each other on the school bus,and yes yes!it was damn fun(: and there was this guy fahmi,god knows what has happened to him): i just love to bully him.so like i always pinched his ass in the bus(: he was damn funny too.i suddenly miss kindergarten friends.and primary school ones too!like faiqah,tamlyn and denise and estee): they're all like dont know where.and i miss ms cheng and cikgu aniza too)': oh man,i feel deprived of childhood,HAHAHAHAHA.okay okay,i'm gonna sleep now.i have to wake up at 5.30): i'm outie.TOODLES(:







;coz I'm the one that loves you lately.

hello(:
watching lady and the tramp,HAH.then i kinda felt a little blue,but i'm alright now(: so here's some pictures from my brother's grad.and maybe some other random ones.































HAHA,THE ENDINGS ARE SO DAMN RANDOM.but they're so loved<3

hello(:
so like.life's great these days,at least i'm not slashing or anything anymore(: even at my worst days,i dont.lets see,parents and i have been getting really well.i mean about a 2 years ago,we were so not talking.&i was such a crap,getting into trouble,doing thing that i shouldnt.i mean the last one i still do,but it doesnt really involve my parents you see.so i guess sometimes i do feel rather blue and all,then i'll just cry and grab a stick or 2.then i'll feel better.but you know,i was just wondering,what if one day,things dont feel like its better.oh man,i guess i'm just thinking too much.maybe coz i'm bored.i dont know,really.so i've been refraining myself from doing alot of things.i starve so i can fag,hah.you know QAF's season 1 bloopers are some funny shit okayy.oh man,gale's so cute.he's just a natural clown.like when he does something funny,he doesnt go on giggling and laughing all over the floor.he just grins.HAH,and i find it downrightly adorable(: okay so i'm gonna end this with brian kinney's blooper line.i'm outie.TOODLES(:






;talking about cigars and smoking pussy.HAHAHAHAHAHAHHHAHHAH!

hello(:
weekends were banging!my brother's graduation on saturday,saw him singing and dancing,he never looked so cute,like ever.okay so maybe he always looked cute,but jeez,my little rascal's all grown up.and he wore the typical grad attire,oh man.then it strucked me,my brother's going into a primary school next year,then he'll be moving on to secondary school.that's damn fast you know.&&& my sweet sixteen and N's is next year,and O's is the year after next.then i'll be graduating,then the real thing begins.this reeks.okay so what i got to do now is: study,score good for my exams, and HAVE BANGING FUNS(: you know,before you actually realise whats going on,you'll be like having your grad.in pretty dresses and pretty make ups and pretty hair dos.omgggg,i'm going to be on my own in about,ummm,6 years.after my 21st birthday i'll be working and earning money and finally really,REALLY thinking for myself.oh man,okay i should stop thinking and just go with the flow right.yes i should,tralalas.
so the weekends with my family.fun,annoying,hilarious.so we're gonna go fishing this weekend(: YAYYYY!then before we know it,we'll be off for KL for FUN.hah,i called mr rockstar at 0036am.he was swimming and partying with 6 heads.O's are gonna be over for him,the fun of parting and partly worrying about results,HAH.okay so i'm like hungry now.i'm gonna have breakfast then i'll be back i hope,hah.ahhh,i'm outie.TOODLES(:




;when i actually thought that it could happen once again.

hello(:
met roland at 8,omggggg.i really didnt have enough sleep okayy.we watched crossroads,drank a little.i feel damn tired now.i need sleep,really.oh i'm supposed to meet mer and jar tomorrow,i dont want i dont want!i wanna sleeeeeeeep hah,i called mr rockstar yesterday,and like omg.he's damn retarded okay. oh my dad plans to go to KL next month,like yay.shopping non stop!and and and,i wanna do henna!TRALALAS.oh and that stupid tata young's also going to KL on the 11th.i'm so gonna do a banner that says,fuck you thailand slut.HAH,my mummy hates her too.ahhh,i'm outie.TOODLES(:





;i used think i had the answers to everything.

hello(:
woke up damn early today,coz granny had an appointment at sgh.with her maid and some moron.td sent us,omgggggg.he talked and talked and talked and talked non stop!it was damn annoying,and that moron was such an annoyant too.i was surrounded by assholes.i bet that td was late for some stuff,HAH.okayy then sgh was some real blur.from basement to main lobby then back again,then had to wait for 1234567890 years,omggggggg.i was really damn blur.and i was dying of waiting and the exteme boredom.i puffed 7 fucking times and luckily the 711 there wasnt strict.i bought the tiny absolut bottle,its damn cute really!the guy at the counter was like i know you're below 18,jeeez mann.i got shocked,but he was damn niceeeee,he said no one was there so he'll sell it to me(: he's gay by th way.those total can tell signs.
after sgh,i dropped granny at her house then made my way to roland's house.puffed,drank a bit,then jen came over.then my ass started to hurt and i seriously needed to get the top from mark and spencer that i saw.its 129 bucks,but i got it already!and i want to get that multi coloured mp3 too,its damn banging.i still need to get so many cds,oh the horror.anyways,went home after i got my top,roland sent me to cck,then he went to meet his sister.no one was at home,so i watched scary movie 1 to 4 and first season of QAF,tralala.
and OH OH OH!hunn's coming back on december(: TRALALAS.i miss him alot): there's so much i have to tell him,like ALOT REALLY.and i called mr rockstar just now,so BANG!he scared for his O's,like who wouldnt be!ohh theres so many people sitting for O's.anyways,all the best to mr rockstar, jafny, dayana, xiuhui,and the rest.O's really does sound scary,i'm not looking forward to mine):






;decapitation of the human head,nailing clothes to coffin walls.

hello(:
omgggggg,theres this game virtual laguna beach.its damn cool okay!and my avatar is damn niceeee.HAH,so cool!so my habbo user cant trackback): so damn sad okay!nevermind,i have a new one.TRALALA,i'm so happy.i think strawberry shortcake is so banging!totally not the merchandises,but the cartoon is damn cuteeeee,really(: hah i saw the new video "bones" by the killers and "love like winter" by AFI,omgggggg super banging!trios wanna go catch uber many movies.lets see there's the covenant,flushed away,crank,step up,material girls,saw 3,happy feet and maybe casino royale,HAH it looks cool though.
oh mann,i saw new phones,N95 and nokia 5300.and i saw the sony mp3 player too!the multi coloured ones.so banging!i want the black one,tralalas.okayy,fine enough crapping.i wanna go play now.till the next time(:




;say it.yes,no,now,or never.

hello(:
trios are going out later!hah,havent decided where.but i wanna stay over at jen's and get crazy again(: then i can laugh my heart out.TRALALA,you know,i think i miss hunn): i know i know!ohh bummer,really.O's are like next week for mr rockstar.and his blessings worked(: hah inside joke.ahhhhhh.
isnt my layout banging?hah i'm in love with ultra BANGING stuff.so far i havent been sad or anything.but QAF really makes me cry,smile and laugh.TRALALA,cant you see that i'm a QAF nut,or rather a brian kinney nut(: ahhhhh,he's so cool.i love season 5(: coz the part that he said,"will you marry me?".and of course justin said no,then yes.HAH,so banging.i wanna go shower now.till the next time(:





;i can feel the night beginning.

hello(:
so i'm bored,and roland think its a not a-big-a-deal.wtf,whatever.so i'm gonna do this quiz.its so banging(:

1. Honestly, what color is your wallet?

umm,black!with blazers(:

2. Honestly, whats on your mind?

mr rockstar,brian kinney,HUNN<333

3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?

doing this damn thing,and talking to roland.

4. Honestly, do you think you are attractive?

hah lets be bold.

5. Honestly, have you done something bad today?

umm,i scolded my puppy):

6. Honestly, do you watch disney channel?

state the obvious.

7. Honestly, are you jealous of someone rightnow?

hmmm,nope.

8. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time?

hunn,mr rockstar,ronan keating,boyzone,and QAF(:

9. Honestly, do you bite your nails?

yes,especially when i'm anxious.

10. Honestly, did you call your boyfriend everyday?

umm,time out you mean?nope,not really.its costly):

11. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder?

umm,yes.

12. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute?

yes):

13. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret??

of course!

14. Honestly, do you have a friend you don't actually like?

hmm,probably.but she's not a friend,more like acquaintance.

15. Honestly, are you loyal?

hah,maybe too loyal.

16. Honestly, are you confused with your feelings?

umm yes.

17. Honestly, who would you wanna be with right now?

hunn,mr rockstar and at the moment brian kinney(:

18. Honestly, do you like someone?

obviously,TRALALA.

19. Honestly, does anyone like you?

YES.my mum,dad,etc.my trios(:

20. Honestly, are u an easy going person?

hmm surprisingly yes.

DIFFERENT EMOTIONS SURVEY

*Anger Section*

1. What do you do when you're mad?

stay quiet,cry,swear endlessly,or just watch some hilarious show.

2. What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?

umm,slash my wrists?

3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?

ohh, yes.

4. Do you swear when you're mad?

totally.

*CRYING SECTION*

1. When was the last time you really cried?

yesterday!

2. Ever cried yourself to sleep?

just like yesterday)':

4. Do certain songs make you cry?

ohh major totally!

5. What usually makes you cry?

ahhh,heartbreaking emo songs and QAF)':

*Happy Section*

1. Are you normally a happy person?

hmm,i suppose.

2. What can make you happy?

hunn,mr rockstar,puffing,drinking and QAF!(:

3. Does being with your friends make you happy?

totally,especially trios(:

i just spent 52 minutes on this thing.ohh yes i counted!TRALALA.

hello(:
you know,i really need to save $$$.i wanna get so many things.lets see.umm,my chemical romance welcome to the black parade album,and evanescence the open door album.although i didnt really like the welcome to the black parade song,the rest of the songs are nice though.ohh and the evanscence songs are just so banging(: especially lithium!omgggg,they're so rocking.and i wanna get the best of george michael album too!ahhh,so many.i'm a happy girl,really!collected my results,no retaining for me(: i'm fucking happy!some soul made me even more than happy yesterday,like yay yay yay!i dont know whats wrong with me,its not like it hasnt happen in a year right!hah oh well.it has been months since this happened,TRALALA.i'm in heaven,and i feel dreamy.its true when they say sweet november.coz it seems to be the way its said to be,HAH.anyways,thanks for saving me.you'll get repaid soon(: its happened again,the biggest tragedy of my life.it always happens,especially when i'm actually not up for it): fuck it really.i'm such a softie,i trust people too easily.see i'm writing my weaknesses.and i still seem so proud of it.i hope someone would just shoot me or something.ohh yes,i forgot.GUNS ARE ILLEGAL IN SINGAPORE.jeez,they really should legalize them.coz most of all,majority of teenagers need it.so i said need,and not want.i'd love to own one(: oh well,someone please just shoot me,i'd be so thankful<3 till the next time(:





;at least look at me when you shoot a bullet through my head.

hello(:
i called hunn at midnight,hah.i was bored and that's probably the only time i can talk to him.anyways,we talked about his to be,like she can just go fuck herself oookay.she told him that she's only going with him coz their parents are pretty good friends,and she wants to let go of her old life and stuff like she being the ultra screw up slut in high school.like OMGGGGGG.he's upset,i mean which effing person wouldnt be?!he plans to end it,god knows what'll happen when his parents hear this.that effing no face whore can just suck on crazy pete's dick oookay.like why did you even sound so sincere and quite marvellously interested in your emails.LIKE WTHH.he's afraid what'll happen between his effing parents and her bloody effing parents.&that effing total fuckface slut's like sleeping with the whole neighbourhood.
&you know how effing bad that sounds?i mean you made him uber upset,and i'll never let you get away with this sad fuck.AT ALL.ayeeee,its as serious as it sounds coz he was sobbing oookay): fuck you,ALEXIS DAEVENIALL,ohh fuck however you spell it.i hope you fucking read this,coz you're so getting onto IT.rawr,i'm pissed off.i may be acting rather possesive/one sided/over reacting/etc.but whatever,he went all the way from singapore to ireland for this fuckface whore?10 words,especially for alexis daeveniall,you can fuck in hell for all that he care.hevawhorelump,rot in hell(:

enough of that whore.so that was part of halloween for me.HAH,we saw hunn on webcam.&he wore that fake plaited beard.TRALALA,my costume was such a bang.i ultra love it(: so michael and roland clicked well,which was surprising.despite the lacking sense of humour that michael has,hah.jen and michael seems to be a little too comfortable too,omggggg.yesterday was double yay.hunn was looking marvellously marvellous(: so great partayeee yesterday.smokey,drunkey,eerie,omggggg.it was some blazer really.so big deal roland and i got drunk,michael maybe a little,jen went over board.so the 3 of us stayed over at jen's place.it ended at 2,so some luck.i couldnt sleep.&i watched the whole 1st season of QAF.so yeah,it ended sad,so justin was stuck in coma,and brian still in denial that he actually loves justin.well give it up already,everyone knows.TRALALA,i wanna be gay,i love brian kinney<3 HAH,so i just reached home.i miss mr rockstar): all the best you,hope to talk to you soon.till the next time(:





;&i could list a million things i love to like about you.